Because I Love You

I know it hurts.
I’m sorry.
I can fix it.
I can make you better.
Why won’t you let me make it better?
You’re pretending.
You’re pretending, aren’t you?
Why are you pretending?
Stop it.
It doesn’t hurt.
It still hurts?
I’ll fix it.
I’ll make it stop.
I’ll make it stop for us both.
I can’t do this anymore.
I’ll make it stop.
I know it hurts.
But now it won’t anymore.
Now it won’t hurt either of us.
Not anymore.
Never again.
I know it hurts.
I’m sorry.
I can fix it.
Why won’t you let fix it?
Stop fighting.
Let me fix it.
It won’t hurt anymore.
Not anyone.
Anymore.


Sometimes I wonder which is worse, loving someone with a chronic condition or being the one with the chronic condition…
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From Tethered to Tattered

Souls were meant to travel
To permeate each other
ebb and flow
to soothe into one another
and withdraw like the dew

Yet they are constrained
pushed into this world
caged inside flesh
Tortured by glimpses
of infinity in a moment
and eternity beyond touch

So, what happens
to the soul that escapes
Who shredded its tethers
and flows in and out
of itself and others

What of the body
left behind soulless
during dream time
with connections awry
the cage splayed open
Empty with soul absent

Or of the reunion
And the soul returns
and the body reawakens
when the soul no longer fits
and the cage is weakened

How long can a soul stay
in a cage it hates
when it’s felt freedom
and the touch of life
true as from the source

The shell never fit
A body ever left wanting
Captive of in-between
Undecided
on staying or leaving

So it leaves just once more
and then returns
Ambiguos
Searches again for clarity
Tearing the strands
of body and soul
ever more
and more
Forever more
one last time

Starlight

Ghosts
Standing at my door
Throwing pebbles at my window
Inform
Inconsistent
There and gone
Come back
Stay away
Remind me
Make me forget

Only in the dark
Peak at me from the past
Whisper to me you’re still here
Tell me you’re not gone
Things I wonder or know
That I feel kisses in the breeze
During nights I’m alone
In my own company

You are my lights
My beautiful night sky
The patterns of chaos
Panning out into order
As understanding dawns
Upon the small and blind
We are immeasurably alone
Yet, somehow, connected
As we shine upon each other.

Poison

Lover, let me touch your lips
Caress and break away
Brush away binding wisps
Of regretful yesterday
To raise your eyes my own
And show you’re not alone

Suitor, taste sweet of me which
Lingers still upon your tongue
Light and yet so rich
So swift a kiss that it stung
Such a slow, creeping toll
Of a poison into your soul

Darling, feel the toxin begin to burn
Through the day into the night
Recall the kiss that makes you yearn
Then come to bed and dreams alight
And into your dreams you may lure
This woman who holds your hidden cure


One of my older pieces from a very trial ridden part of my life.