What is a crumpet and what does it have to do with me?
I’m not entirely sure.
The only similarity seems to be that they are poured onto a hot surface to be seared from batter into a solid yet holy piece of architecture meant to transport something sweet.
I had a difficult day today. I’ve been struggling with a lot of pain in my lower back, the kind that says my attempts with physical therapy aren’t working. My younger two children made Tom Sawyer’s mischief look like nothing on more than one occasion. One of our dogs threw up in my car at least once during the car rides to/from the vet. And let’s not forget the doctor appointment that was supposed to be simple but wasn’t.
But, you know? It was worth it. The kids need to know that boundaries and rules will be enforced, and, oh my gosh, they had plenty of opportunities where the rules were enforced with discipline. Our pup passed her vet inspection with flying colors and is ready to fly out to her new owner. The surgeon I met with showed a better understanding of how my medications work together and against one another and explained how certain ones could be causing this side effect or that one. While she did give me another medication to take, it is absolutely temporary unlike my pre-existing laundry list of medicines.
After dinner, I excused myself for an errand and went to check out a new beach I was contemplating taking the kids to. It was beautiful, a nice easy slope into the water, shells, I even got to see a crab walking up onto the shore right around sunset. It was a great opportunity to de-stress, plus the sea/salt water is supposed to be good for my fibromyalgia.
Then I came home to a husband who put up with a “me” movie of his own volition and choosing to try and make my day a little better. He hated The Man from U.N.C.L.E., but I thought it was hilarious.
The day had lots of stress, and lots of pain, and lots of messes to clean up. At the end of the day, though, I have an amazing family of… creative… kidlets, and a loving husband. I may feel like it’s all falling apart, but sometimes the pieces need to get rearranged because we’re trying to jam them into places they don’t belong in.
I still feel like there are pieces of my mind just gone, like the holes in a crumpet; sure, the structure is all there for where things should be, but those times are just… empty. The great thing about empty spaces, I guess, is that I can fill them with the sweet little things in life that didn’t have a place before. Like appreciating my kids’ creativity, or my husband’s attempts to be caring even if he won’t actually come right out with it because he has to keep his macho-man image up.
I love my family so very, very much.