A Few Shades Too Close

So, being pissed and disappointed with my husband’s behavior right before he leaves in deployment seems to be the going trend.

I decided to watch Firty Shades Darker and eat some discounted Valentine’s Day chocolate given my foul mood. I have not read the. Oops and was not a fan of the first movie, it just looked like the second one was going to have more of a plot. Oh well.

Funny thing about “entertainment”, I trained myself at a young age to always look for how what I’m looking at is applicable to my own life. Fifty Shades Darker reminds me a lot of my relationship with my husband when we first got together.

There is a certain level of that need to possess that always made me feel special just as much as it drove me crazy. It’s a twisted spin off of the need to be protected, in my opinion.

It’s interesting to watch a bit of an extension of the darker aspects of one’s own demons up on a big screen. 

She almost attracts as many crazies as I do.


Live Outside the Box

I have always wanted to travel. Lately, I just want to be somewhere that isn’t tainted by bad memories. Or any memories at all.

I want to walk into a canvas, merge into a photograph of some far off place in a culture I don’t know anything about. I want to keep learning and living and breathing in every part of this earth that is so amazing.

I want to see the beauty the way it was meant to be, away from the cities and the people that are destroying it for greed.
I don’t believe people were meant to be kept in boxes.


I need some writing prompts. Anywhere from 1 word to a sentence long.

I want to write but my brain is dead/exhausted/lost in fibro fog.

Thoughts and ideas?