Repost: Expanding Into Nothing

Close your eyes

empty yourself into the void

the weightlessness of space

without thought

down below your mind

Meditate, if you would,

on the emptiness of senses

almost as if drifting to sleep

but instead of drifting back

you drift down again

As the nothingness expands

so do you

stretching as if having been

confined too long

in too small a space

feeling out a velvet touch

permeating you the space

Is there another here?

The question stretches

out through you as if

no mind exists merely

an osmosis of consciousness

Tangles of tendril like limbs

slither themselves into the blackness

searching for a connection

a thought, something foreign or familiar

in the darkness

Are you here?

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The Fruits of a Broken Family Tree

Today’s writing prompt word is “Awkward“.


The Fruits of a Broken Family Tree

The room was filled with the raucous thundering of too many converging conversations. It wasn’t a place for children but it was where everyone said they needed to be. Despite all of the elbow bumping of the cramped little living room, the children sat in a space of their own, devoid of the adults’ attention while still being subjected to the comments and stories of how the black-garbed group had come to see it all coming and had done nothing to help.

It was her fault. It was his fault. It was their fault. It was no one’s fault.

It was stress. It was depression. It was anxiety. It was rage.

The children sat in the humid bubble of too many voices while seemingly untouched by it at all.

It was enough, more than enough, it was too much, and the still calm of the children dissolved; the boy into tears and the girl into fury. He flew himself into a corner and sobbed. She climbed atop a table and pummeled it with her heel to quiet the crowd.

In the silence that followed, she announced “It’s okay. I asked him if he still loved her and he said yes.”

The crowd’s angry faces had gone blank, and then confused, and then unsure as she stood atop her impromptu pedestal beaming with as she stood in the glory that her knowledge had just saved them all.

Then, the whispers began…
“Doesn’t she know?”
“Someone has to tell her.”
“It’s not my place to tell her.”
“How could she not know?”

And from a corner in the back, the little boy stepped up into the light as his tears streamed down his face. “It’s not going to be okay. She’s dead.” He wailed.

“But Daddy said he still loved her.” The girl insisted.

“No!” Was the answering word, torn from the seized throat of an anguished little soul.

And the rift between the two children grew as the crowd stood in it, mumbling and muttering and fumbling about in their emotional incompetence.

Deprivation

Deprivation must be my muse for it seems the only way I can know what I need is when I am without it, when the deepest recesses of my mind are permeated by unmet need am I able to recognize the truth from amidst the fiction, the desire from reality, or the consequences regardless of intent.

The Water Well

Life is a river running through time; ebbing, flowing, curving, twisting, roiling and calm.

Out amidst the vastness of the mind, a figure floats amid the waters, dipping a quill into liquid and penning along the stars a story’s constellation, line by line.

With every story, the ink that runs and drips lives into existence, that tells of yesterdays and todays and tomorrows, no matter the color all comes from a well fed by the undercurrents of spirits traversing existence along those living waters like inks themselves.

So they exist alone and blended and those blendings blending until a universe bursts into existence with all creatures and stories separate yet entwined. And the words among the stars bleed and seep and drip onto the canvas of the mind as the pictures the mind’s eye sees within and then without.

Facets of Drawing Out the Soul

Spirituality is the song that calls int he quiet of a raucous heart. 

Religion is the structure to protect those who have been lost in the lonely wild. 

Intimacy is the relationship for those who were left unloved and unwanted in the universe. 

Calling is the connection of them all intersecting with your truest core of the soul.

We Are Light

We all come into this world as perfect points of light.

As we grow, the darkness of the world encroaches, and we harden the walls of our hearts around our light to protect ourselves from that darkness. What we often fail to realize until years down the road is that, not only are we light, but our light is magnified by the light of those we surround ourselves by.

The walls of a hardened heart may protect but they also confine, they may hold the darkness without at bay but they strangle the life within.

Then, regardless of our best efforts, we are broken. From without or within our walls crack from the years of scoring, they shear down to the soul, through all of that suffocating protection down to what little light we have left… and it hurts.

From those cracks, other’s lights are given the chance to shine back in, and then our light has the chance to grow and shine back out. The walls begin crumbling as the light burns brighter and hotter through healing. There may always be dark clouds floating along our surface from the lives we have lived, but the shadows they cast will grow fainter and fainter as our light grows.

A heart that had been nothing but a lump of rock begins its journey back to a beautiful heavenly body by cracking and breaking and healing.

Who we are is not just a history of how we were treated but also a narrative of how we have treated ourselves and a prediction of how we will treat others.